Often times people will ask in interviews “what’s one word you would use to describe yourself?”. This is the only question in those situations where I consistently lie, because I know if I were to tell them the truth I’d be fast-tracked to the “no” pile. My real answer would sell me as someone not worth hiring and I know that others wouldn’t think the same of me, but I can’t help but think it. It’s a mindset that needs to change, but I don’t know how. It’s self-fulfilling and cyclical, I do something that makes me think this way and then because I’m thinking of myself in that way I repeat it from a lack of motivation. I’m constantly falling further into this pit and soon I may end up six feet deep because of it.
If I had one word to describe myself it would be “failure”.